And finally, the other shoe drops....

Andy and his wife are trying to decide whether to work it out or not... Things there are really heating up... He is totally confused. So when my district manager offered me the job of running a store about 100 miles from here, I said I would consider it. I told Andy that it would be easier for him to think, and to figure out what he wants if we aren't seeing so much of each other. We also need to slow down, anyway. He wasn't quite sure at first, but he realized that I was right - as long as we can still talk on the phone, and see each other occasionally. I told the DM that I didn't want the store permanently, but I would run it until they found someone... Probably about 6 weeks. Company is going to pay my motel, and up my salary.
Andy asked me this evening how I was going to feel if he and his wife did work things out... I thought about it, said I'd just be shit out of luck, and told him I would eventually get over it. Eventually.
This scares the hell out of me. I haven't been this scared in years. I am so crazy about him. We could be so good together...
I have been told before that I'm not the kind of girl that men want to marry. I'm too independent, too honest... Maybe they are right. Maybe I should just concentrate on my son, and my career and to hell with men. I've said it before... I have a sign on my forehead that only men can read... It says "Use me and Lose me".